Self-recovery

Typical Hari Yeah activities...

Today was supposed to be Hari Yeah, a traditional self-declared holiday after exams or big assignments where I will celebrate by doing absolutely nothing useful, well apart from ridding Azeroth of foul demons, trolls,  naga and what not.

But sadly once you start working, these self-declared holidays are nothing more than just a figment of your imagination. And contrary to popular belief, its not that convenient to take self-declared holidays, even when you're working for your own parents.

On the bright side, I gained a new skill today. This morning Yong asked me, "So why you emo last night. What happened this time?" My reply was "What you mean what happened? Nothing happened. Nothing can ever happen."

It took me quite a while until I realised that it was just so hilarious and I started laughing to myself. Without anything occurring, without any new developments to the situation, I can still emo. Its so sad that its funny really (remember that graph few posts back?). But the good news is that after laughing at myself for about an hour, I felt much better. *Gained New Skill: Self-recovery*

Afterall, I used to be pro-healer ok?

Ok on to more 'deeper things' shall we? The other day my mum and I had a discussion concerning relationships and stuff while having lunch at Delifrance (which btw I should stop going to coz thats just my emo-haven really). I forgot how the topic started but I think we were talking about how rich old men can easily find pretty young girls and how the girls will leave once the guy is poor. So then I told my mum, "Thats why I wanted to get a girl back in college or uni, who will accept me even while I am still a nobody."

My mum quickly commented that even so people can change.She proceeded to remind me of the story of people I knew. Long story short, the guy was from a poor family and the girl was from a rather rich family. They were both childhood friends and went to UK for studies and got together there. She even shared her pocket money with him. This guy wasn't brilliant or anything, in fact after 5 years or so he returned without a degree, but she stuck with him. Then he hit big in the market and became very wealthy.

Naturally he pampered this wife, never controlling how his wife spend money, even allowing her to take one-day trips to Hong Kong for dim sum. When she sick he cook for her etc. But once the economy went bad and he became bankrupt, she left him. So yea this isn't just your typical, "Oh she married him coz of his money mah so its not surprising...." People can change and its scary.

I was rather disturbed by this and I told my mum that maybe staying single is the best. Like they say, by loving someone you are giving that person the power to hurt you. Yea I know I'm a wuss, but can you blame me? Of course I want another chance at love but.......oh nevermind.

Anyway while I was alone thinking, 1 Samuel 8 suddenly came to mind. Background story: It was during the time where the nation of Israel still had no king, as God was supposed to be the 'King', and He would use certain people known as the Judges, to lead them in times of crisis. This particular chapter is about Israel asking the prophet Samuel to ask God to give them a King. Their reason being that all the other nations had kings and they perhaps felt that by having a king to lead them, they will be more powerful or something.

Sound familiar? I'm going to 'translate' it into context. We all want a girlfriend or boyfriend because we look around and see that so many people have them. We see the joy and love that they share and we want that for ourselves too. 

Now the prophet Samuel was rather upset because of Israel's request, but God told him this, "It is not you they have rejected, but it is me they have rejected as their king." To me its like God asking Israel, "Am I not good enough for you that you need a king?" Somehow I felt as if God was asking me "Is the love and joy I give to you not good enough that you need a girlfriend?" 

The next part was just funny. God tells Samuel to warn the Israelites of what a king will do to them. Basically their sons will have to serve the king as soldiers or as labourers, and their daughters will end up as servants, cooks etc. The King will also take the best of their fields, their flocks and then turn them into slaves etc. Somehow as I was thinking  about this I could hear a voice in my head saying, "Why do you want a girlfriend? She will just suck up your time, energy and money." LOL!

In spite of all this, Israel still wanted a king just as we still want a girlfriend/boyfriend. We fail to realise that girlfriends/boyfriends can short-change us, but God will never short-change us. So yea these verses have been on my mind lately and it has really changed my perspective towards this issue.

The most amazing part of this story is that God still gave Israel a king. And I know we all hate the 'waiting part' right, but God's timing is perfect. So if we're still waiting, it just means that God doesn't think we are ready for it yet =)