Self-recovery

Typical Hari Yeah activities...

Today was supposed to be Hari Yeah, a traditional self-declared holiday after exams or big assignments where I will celebrate by doing absolutely nothing useful, well apart from ridding Azeroth of foul demons, trolls,  naga and what not.

But sadly once you start working, these self-declared holidays are nothing more than just a figment of your imagination. And contrary to popular belief, its not that convenient to take self-declared holidays, even when you're working for your own parents.

On the bright side, I gained a new skill today. This morning Yong asked me, "So why you emo last night. What happened this time?" My reply was "What you mean what happened? Nothing happened. Nothing can ever happen."

It took me quite a while until I realised that it was just so hilarious and I started laughing to myself. Without anything occurring, without any new developments to the situation, I can still emo. Its so sad that its funny really (remember that graph few posts back?). But the good news is that after laughing at myself for about an hour, I felt much better. *Gained New Skill: Self-recovery*

Afterall, I used to be pro-healer ok?

Ok on to more 'deeper things' shall we? The other day my mum and I had a discussion concerning relationships and stuff while having lunch at Delifrance (which btw I should stop going to coz thats just my emo-haven really). I forgot how the topic started but I think we were talking about how rich old men can easily find pretty young girls and how the girls will leave once the guy is poor. So then I told my mum, "Thats why I wanted to get a girl back in college or uni, who will accept me even while I am still a nobody."

My mum quickly commented that even so people can change.She proceeded to remind me of the story of people I knew. Long story short, the guy was from a poor family and the girl was from a rather rich family. They were both childhood friends and went to UK for studies and got together there. She even shared her pocket money with him. This guy wasn't brilliant or anything, in fact after 5 years or so he returned without a degree, but she stuck with him. Then he hit big in the market and became very wealthy.

Naturally he pampered this wife, never controlling how his wife spend money, even allowing her to take one-day trips to Hong Kong for dim sum. When she sick he cook for her etc. But once the economy went bad and he became bankrupt, she left him. So yea this isn't just your typical, "Oh she married him coz of his money mah so its not surprising...." People can change and its scary.

I was rather disturbed by this and I told my mum that maybe staying single is the best. Like they say, by loving someone you are giving that person the power to hurt you. Yea I know I'm a wuss, but can you blame me? Of course I want another chance at love but.......oh nevermind.

Anyway while I was alone thinking, 1 Samuel 8 suddenly came to mind. Background story: It was during the time where the nation of Israel still had no king, as God was supposed to be the 'King', and He would use certain people known as the Judges, to lead them in times of crisis. This particular chapter is about Israel asking the prophet Samuel to ask God to give them a King. Their reason being that all the other nations had kings and they perhaps felt that by having a king to lead them, they will be more powerful or something.

Sound familiar? I'm going to 'translate' it into context. We all want a girlfriend or boyfriend because we look around and see that so many people have them. We see the joy and love that they share and we want that for ourselves too. 

Now the prophet Samuel was rather upset because of Israel's request, but God told him this, "It is not you they have rejected, but it is me they have rejected as their king." To me its like God asking Israel, "Am I not good enough for you that you need a king?" Somehow I felt as if God was asking me "Is the love and joy I give to you not good enough that you need a girlfriend?" 

The next part was just funny. God tells Samuel to warn the Israelites of what a king will do to them. Basically their sons will have to serve the king as soldiers or as labourers, and their daughters will end up as servants, cooks etc. The King will also take the best of their fields, their flocks and then turn them into slaves etc. Somehow as I was thinking  about this I could hear a voice in my head saying, "Why do you want a girlfriend? She will just suck up your time, energy and money." LOL!

In spite of all this, Israel still wanted a king just as we still want a girlfriend/boyfriend. We fail to realise that girlfriends/boyfriends can short-change us, but God will never short-change us. So yea these verses have been on my mind lately and it has really changed my perspective towards this issue.

The most amazing part of this story is that God still gave Israel a king. And I know we all hate the 'waiting part' right, but God's timing is perfect. So if we're still waiting, it just means that God doesn't think we are ready for it yet =)

Exam Over. So what?

So exam for this sem is over and done with. Usually people will have a long list of the stuff they intend to do after their last paper, but not me. I intend to do all the same things that I do everyday, just minus the guilt.

But if there's one thing I'm looking forward to, is watching the film Inglourious Basterds. Movies with names like that are surely epic and its directed by Quentin Tarantino no less. I would of gone tonight had I not promised Zhou that I will wait for him to come back and watch together. Afterall, we only have each other =(

Trust you? LOL!

Now I actually feel like buying him McD Sundae just out of sympathy. LOL! Ok I shall not rub it in, especially since so many of my friends are MU fans *yawn*.

Really no mood tonight. Don't want to talk about it either, hence the really short post. Suffice to say there's nothing to look forward to really. People usually can sleep in and relax after their exam is over, but I have to go work again tomorrow. I know what some people will say: "Time to find a girlfriend."

More on that in my next post. Just too lazy atm.

Ciao.

If

If I had more time......
I would of read finish my entire CPA syllabus from front to back three times and still be free enough to personally thank all those that wished me happy birthday. 


Come to think of it, if I had more time I would of kept in touch with more friends so that I would have more people to wish me happy birthday -___- And instead of using instant messengers or posting on each other's Facebook walls, I would of written long letters and corresponded via snail mail LOL! Ok at least via email lah!


Might I add that Facebook wall posting is so impersonal anyway, and that combined with the use of urban slang especially while chatting through instant messengers, causes our English to decline. 

Despite our best efforts, we gave up after two minutes. Cheers for propery english!


Oh and I forgot to mention, taking the time to keep in touch with old friends is important so that I have more people to invite to my future wedding (or funeral, whichever comes first), 


If I had a wedding.....


I know that's a big IF....but still.....Zhou would be the worship leader (unless you are the best man). Mariel will be playing the piano for the wedding march (you can thank me later), oh but wait this is the most important part, in a BABY-DOLL DRESS! 


Filbert once asked me who will be my best man. My answer was, "Whoever is the one who provides the assist." Assist meaning the one who spotted her, or intro-ed her to me, or was a positive influence in anyway etc. His immediate reply was, "Wah like that I die lah!" LOL. So let this be an incentive to all of you to quickly help me get a sweet young thing!





Unlike Yong, I don't really have a 'wedding song' in mind, because that is something only girls do (yes offence). But for the sake of conversation, if I had to choose a song, it will be Shania Twain's You're Still the One, because of the lyrics. The best part is the first line: "Looks like we made it......" 
LOL LOL LOL! Bah. You guys have no sense of humour -__-


Alternatively, if my funeral comes first then, well Zhou will still be song leading. Mariel will still have to wear a babydoll dress (black one this time), and she will have to sing Leann Rimes's How Do I Live Without You. LOL! Just kidding, actually you guys have to play....





ITS CELEBRATION TIME! 

Perhaps my time seemed all too brief,

Don't lengthen it now with undue grief.

Lift up your hearts and share with me,

God wanted me now, He set me free!

Oh forgot to mention that my wedding (IF I do have one) will be in Paris. Not because its romantic or anything, but rather because I have a grudge against those Parisians who were busy kissing/hugging/ making out right in my face the last time I was there. Its pay back time!

I wonder whether you can get married outside of the Louvre.

But then again........


If I was that ridiculously rich.....


The first thing I will do is fill up two forms. One being the form to discontinue my CPA membership and the other being my job resignation. Then I will travel to Japan, Korea, China, and Europe (in summer this time). Don't know why but I don't feel keen on going to America or anything. I rather go to the Middle-east. 


Then once I'm back, I will set up a new company and employ all my friends to come work for me. Their job description is simply this: 
Play game with me.

Then I will also buy over Facebook and remove the "Ignore Friend Request" button. That feature has caused too much pain and grief for some people (ok just one person -_-)


Then I will give away the rest of my fortune to charity and missions, and go join some crusades and make my life useful. And once all of that has been finally achieved, I will pursue my true passion in life: Rotting.

Attempt no.241 to get tanned. 

Oh another thing I need to do is get an artificial tan. 


So many 'if' and 'wants' and 'more of' in my life. I'm sure everyone has. But this has just dawned on me: 


If everything went according to my own desired way, I wouldn't realise that I needed my Lord and Savior every single day. 

Officially Missing You *UPDATED*

If yesterday had a 'topic of the day' it was boy-girl relationships aka BGR. Not only did I have several lengthy discussions with a few people concerning this matter but my cell group decided to watch the film Fireproof last night as well. It is a movie about the struggles of this married couple and the measures taken by the husband to try save what is left of their marriage, in the face of divorce.

As the DVD menu loaded and the movie title was displayed, I felt so out of place. Afterall, the movie tagline is Fireproof: Never Leave Your Partner Behind. Once I saw that I immediately felt like telling my pastor: "Eh pastor, I don't even have a partner to leave behind. Let me go find a partner first then I come back and watch." But I didn't so I stayed and watched the film. I would say that it is a better film than Facing the Giants, and while almost everybody will be able to learn something out of this movie, it is still primarily for those who are currently in relationships. Nonetheless here are several of the things that I picked up from the movie.

The first point is this: If you have nothing good to say, then don't say anything. I'm sure we've all heard of this phrase before, but its not as easy as it seems right? Personally for me this is quite a challenge. I have always prided upon the fact that I am an honest and frank person, and if you can't handle the truth then TOO BAD! But the sad thing is that I've lost count of the times when my 'honesty' and 'bluntness' has hurt the people around me. We always hurt the ones we love the most =( Even my mum tells me, "Sometimes its just stupid to be honest." -__- Don't get me wrong its not like my mum is encouraging me to lie and con people, but honesty doesn't always yield the desired result unfortunately. Story of my life.

The second point that really stood out for me was : 

Don't follow your heart, lead it!

Most of the time when we ask our peers for advice, their reply would be: Just follow your heart. This is based on the reasoning that one should do what he/she feels right at the time. But this is rather dangerous as following your heart means following your feelings and emotions, which can change in an instant. I think this really challenges the way we think about love. Is love only a feeling like The Darkness claims it to be? Maybe that's why there are so many divorces nowadays, because once the 'feeling' is gone, people don't 'love' each other anymore and they don't see the point in sticking around.

This film actually suggests that love is not a feeling but rather a decision, a decision to commit. So in a relationship, you have to decide to commit and stick to it by all means, which is basically 'leading your heart'. This I have always known and agreed on. But my question is now this: What if you're not in a relationship now and you're deciding whether to pursue a girl (girls have it so easy, you just need to sit pretty and say yes/no), do you just follow your heart or lead it? Do you wait until you're absolutely sure that she's the one and only one that you want before moving in? Then again no matter how sure you feel about it, there is no guarantee that it will turn out the way you want it to be. Oh well. All we can do is trust in Him that is in control of everything.

I'm a fan of these twins! They sing really well and are Christians too! Lets see whether I get rejected or ignored. Place your bets people!

Update:

I wonder what kind of odds you would of gotten for that result. O_o

My mum (and dad actually) have always encouraged me to find a girl that can do housework and can look after children, you know basically a housewife. I will always tell them that in this modern era (where girls are just as educated and qualified as guys) there is no point in trying to find a 'housewife' type of girl unless you go to all those kampung and find. But honestly I would rather search for a girl who would be my peer and equal, rather than just a 'glorified maid' (no offense). So anyway after my mum found out that I ate McD twice yesterday (breakfast and dinner), we had this conversation:

Mum: Wah you better find a wife that can earn a lot of money. You everyday eat fast food you will die early and then your kids will suffer.

Me: I thought you want me find a 'housewife' kind of girl?

Mum: No better not lah. No money your kids will die.

Me: Then how? You said before that if wife go out and work nobody will look after the kids!

Mum: Just hope that your wife's mum will help take care of the kids while she is out working lah. If not who going to look after your kids? The maid? Maid feed your kids shit also you don't know! So many of the housewives we know actually can earn money but they no choice have to stay at home to look after kids, because the grandparents don't want to help look after their grandchildren.

Me: So let me get this straight. Finding a wife that can earn money is useless if her parents don't want to help take care of the kids?

Mum: Yalor.

Me: So like that I shouldn't be looking for a wife that can earn money first. I should be looking for potential in-laws that are willing to help jaga anak and then only see if they got daughters that can earn money.

Mum: ......................

Owned.

Helpppppp.......

Short post today. Why? BECAUSE I NEED TO STUDY THATS WHY! My exam is on 26th October 2009. Seems like there's quite a lot of time left but trust me when you're working and studying at the same time, its not nearly enough, especially when you factor in my other needs like rotting, socialising, and of course rotting. Due to the non-existence of classes and the unavailability of friends to discuss with, the self-study CPA program may seem like a cultural shock to some people, but not to me. I feel right at home LOL! Its exactly like uni! LOL!. There comes a point when its so sad that it becomes funny.

The Pathetic-Loser Relationship

If there's one thing my loser-ness has taught me, its self-reliance. So anyway I'm going to try this again, if I'm chatting with you on MSN, or on GoogleTalk, or on Hamachi (although this really isn't an issue anymore), please please kindly remind me to study. This message didn't work the last time, lets hope its more effective now. Filbert (who btw actually thought that audit was going to be fun ROFL?) told me that this is stupid, and asked: "Why don't you just off your MSN?" Well  my enlightened friend, its obviously because I have NO SELF-CONTROL! DUH! So anyway Fil, welcome to the real world where your degree and formal education can only take you so far. The real learning starts now.

Hmm....there's nothing else I can say....eh eh........(damn tat song so addictive wan...)

Oh one more thing! Tomorrow I will be driving my Toyota Vios for the first time in almost 2 years. I'm already feeling nostalgic. We went through so many adventures together, through thick and thin.....

Its been too long, old friend.

Backstreet's Back

Today's message was very appropriate for me. Isaiah 43:18-19 says:

Forget the former things;

Do not dwell on the past.

See I am doing a new thing!

While any psychologist will tell you the same thing that is in those first two lines, the last line is a word of promise that only comes from God. That promise is reason enough to have hope, and that new thing is something to look forward to.

 I really love this song, been spamming it almost everyday. Definitely going to choose it for my next worship lead, so get ready guys! Oops forgot none of  my worship team members read my blog -__-

Is it just me or does the lead singer look kinda like Megan Fox? LOL! But then again I'm the only one who thinks that Yong's lady boss looks like Son Ye Jin. Seriously my eyes can throwwww!

On weekends when there is nobody else in the office except my sister and I, we will tend to blast music to at least boost our morale as we continue to pull through the tough times. What we usually do is we would take turns to choose songs to blast and this weekend was no different. My sister chose the more contemporary music (Beyonce, Taylor Swift, Maroon 5 etc). I on the other hand, had a sudden urge to choose some old-school music, you know the music that I listened to when I was still in my old school aka the pop groups of the 90s era. Unlike the Spice Girls who were peerless in their genre during that era (and all-time in fact), there were so many boy bands e.g Backstreet Boys, 'NSync, 911 (lol remember them?) etc that were famous during the 90s. My favourite group was the Backstreet Boys. I mean they are perhaps the only boy band that fully utilized all members of the group, even though Nick Carter can't sing for nuts, although he does woo the girls (you know who you are LOL!). Check out this funny video which tries to reenact the Everybody music video using World of Warcraft characters. Pretty good!

Click here for the original, which is best music video of all time. Actually no, the best music video of all-time is still the Gee Gee song, but for all the wrong reasons -_- Do you still remember the song I Want It That Way? Man, within 3 secs of that video I couldn't help but burst into laughter (oh and btw check out Nick Carter's actions at 2.02 of that video DAMN FUNNY!). It brings back so many memories. During Form 2 I think, my friends and I joined the singing competition and we sang that song. Hey don't laugh ok? We actually made it to the finals and if not mistaken we got 3rd place! The following year I sang Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely , but first round knock out! Ok you can laugh now -__- Aih, I guess I wasn't emo enough at the time to pull off that song.

Tomorrow is Melaka Governor's Birthday but I still have to go office work. Haiz. See you fellow slackers (you know who you are) on Gtalk and MSN. Oh but at least I get to blast music and torture my sis again LOL! She's already complaining that I'm spamming all these 'funny music' way too much.

Too much of something is bad enough,

But something's coming over me to make me wonder

Too much of nothing is just as tough,

I need to know the way to feel to keep me satisfied.

ROFL! What is wrong with me?

Happy Birthday Yongie!

Tomorrow October 10, marks 23 inglorious basterd years of Lim Yong Hsin's existence on this planet. Yong was one of two people who really encouraged me to start blogging, so I'm going to dedicate this post to him. Thing is Yong and I share A LOT of things in common. Its freaky really. First things first, we are both Librans born in October (and we all know that the Librans are the coolest rite? =p). We both hail from Taman Indah. Indah, just in case you failed your BM, means beautiful. So stop asking us why we are so gorgeous ok? Sure there are other guys who fall under both categories too (e.g Phang), but here is where we are virtually indistinguishable:

1. Food:

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.

We were born with almost identical taste buds. Yong shares my disdain towards certain food, the most infamous being EGGS. I hate eggs. When this comes to the attention of other people, their eyes will pop out and they will ask: "You don't eat eggs? WHY?" Unfortunately I am unable to give a definitive answer, the feud goes so far back I don't remember how it started. Aaron (who btw does not have an academic background in psychology or anthropology) theorizes that the reason why I don't eat eggs is because when I was still small, I was traumatized when learning about Humpty Dumpty's story, and that it has somehow changed my perspective towards eggs. Eggs are friends, not food? -__- Anyway, so when I found out that Yong also didn't eat eggs, I was so overjoyed to find out that I wasn't alone in this respect.

King of Fruits? Not to us! 

I just found out today that he doesn't eat Durian either. It always amazes me when people, especially the foreigners, rave about Durian. How can they tahan the smell....and the.....Ok lets leave it at that before the ISA comes and catches me. Tofu, bittergourd, petai are among the long list of stuff we both refuse to eat. What's funny is that there was a time when we both didn't like mushrooms either, but due to whatever reasons (for me it was erm.....oh nvm and Burger King's Mushroom Swiss Burger), we eat mushrooms now. A recent example of how we are so alike was at my sad graduation convo. At the buffet, despite the variety of food available, Yong filled his plate with just meat pies and he quickly tried to find me to give me some. Funny thing was that once he found me, he saw that my plate was filled with meat pies too. Guess that sums it all up.

2 .Philosophy in DotA and perhaps even in life.

If there is one phrase that characterizes the way we play DotA, it is:

NO GUTS, NO GLORY!

Its not uncommon to see us 1 take 5 (like in the pic above) or to chiong past enemy tower even at the low levels. Whenever we chiong together I feel a surge of optimism as I know there will be at least one person who will go with me to the very end, even to oblivion (aka our retarded deaths). The only problem is that, well even though we chiong together, sometimes the chiong timing is just wrong. Either one of us is too fast or the other is too slow. The other problem is sometimes we chiong together but aim different target. I guess we never really plan about how we were going to chiong.

This doesn't just apply to DotA but to our real life situations as well. We always have each other's best interests at heart but we never really discuss with each other, thereby jeopardizing 'the mission' with wrong timing. In short, what we have is a failure to communicate. Its not that we don't talk to each other, we talk A LOT. In fact we can open a talk show and invite people to just watch us chat. Seriously the stuff we talk about.....really -_- But we never really have a mission briefing where we discuss the specifics of the mission. In fact we only really talk about it during the 'mission debriefing'.

Exhibit A: When I chiong too fast.

Yong: omg....WHY???

Me: But you must realise, I'm in a 'I-got-nothing-to-lose' frame of mind. -_-

Exhibit B: When he chiong too fast.

Yong: Whoops <3

Me: Whoops ur ass. Aih.

So yea, having the same philosophy is not enough. If only we could truly communicate, who knows where we'll be right now.

And finally, the coup de grace...........

3. We both have whiny 'roomies'. LOL!

But why does it seem as if I got the shorter end of the stick? Haih. Yong type -swap roomie pls. So anyway Shu Ning this pic leng enough anot? Oh and btw I call her Shu Ning because Melissa or Mel is just too similar to my sister, which just feels weird somehow. She suggested that maybe she be referred to as Mel L while my sis be referred to as Mel C, but I just don't think my sister is cool enough to be associated with the Spice Girls.

With all things said and done, happy birthday Yongie! <3

Living to Make Your Name High

Been wanting to write this post last week but my internet at home kept disconnecting. Just found out that the house phone line hancur for quite some time already. Didn't notice because nobody calls anyway LOL LOL LOL! (its really funny wat =.=). But I did have 5 minutes to spare for that Emergency Post in the office just before leaving for KL on Friday. To be honest, when I got back home I was quite surprised to find that there were no comments regarding that post. I guess nobody cares about Zhou, and here was the indisputable evidence, if any was really still needed, that nobody reads my blog. Guess I should stop writing like....right NOW! But its okay, at least it allows to me write whatever I want e.g: "Yong got shot in the arse during paintball coz he is too FAT!"

I went up to Sunway on Friday for my 2-day CPA workshop. But firstly I must say that things have changed. The first thing that has changed is my driving speed. Those of you who have sat in my car before on the highways will testify that I drive pretty fast, but the thing is I actually drive considerably slower when I have passengers on board. You know that long stretch just after the Ayer Keroh toll that has the 90km/h speed limit? There was a time when I would run on that track at 170km/h LOL! Which reminds me: I really thank God that I have yet to receive a speeding ticket in my life. But on Friday I was barely reaching 120km/h on that stretch. Sure I was purposely driving slower granted that my sis was on board, but even she noted that I drove considerably slower that day. I think I only peaked at 140km/h during that journey. Dunno whether its because I chicken already or whether I'm just growing old.

Miss Malaysia World 2009: Beauty is Power 

Met up with Yong at Sunway Piramid and we had dinner at Kim Gary. To our surprise, Miss Malaysia World 2009 was being hosted at Piramid.One would think that Miss Malaysia World events would be more posh right? Naturally you must be wondering whether the candidates were really that pretty. Well, if beauty is power (thats the official theme, not I made up wan ok =.=), then most of those candidates were not powerful at all. Seriously, I have friends that have friends that are prettier than them. Eh wait a sec, I actually DO have first-degree friends that are prettier than them. You know who you are ladies =)

No more Delifrance T_T

One of the other things I noticed was that Delifrance has been replaced by Popeyes. Probably doesn't mean anything to you guys, but to me its very significant. I'm boycotting Popeyes for this very reason alone. Anyway, the next day at the CPA workshop I met Yong's 'roomie', Melissa Leong. I actually went up to her and introduced myself, which as you guys know, is extremely rare. But the way she reacted gave me the impression that she thought of me as some pro stalker. A stalker I may be, but pro I am evidently not. I even blundered when I introduced myself. I said something like: "Yea I'm Yong's fren and Melisa's sister...." Haiz. Really fail man. Anyway thanks again for participating in the Losers Outreach program.

Saturday night I met up with Garry and Alvin for dinner. After that they asked me to go cybercafe and play DotA but I told them: "Too lazy". Then they suggested that we go cinema watch movie but I replied: "No mood lah". So what did we do at the end? We went grocery shopping LOL! I guess really growing old already.

So anyway what I've really been wanting to write about all this while is the changes to my blog title and hopefully, and far more importantly, to the contents of the blog itself. For quite some time now I have felt rather disappointed in myself for some of the posts I have written, which have failed to testify God's presence in my life. All I do is complain and whine and while letting these stuff out of my system is good, I do not think that this is the attitude a true Christian should have. Mariel also wrote a similar post regarding this and it was an affirmation to what I was feeling at that time. Romans 8:37 says: "In all these things, we are more than conquerors through him who loved us." We are supposed to be conquerors, but yet we live our lives as if we are defeated by the troubles and adversities that we deal with. And when you consider the fact that our very own lifestyle is the best testimony one could give to our non-believer friends, it is not good at all. Why on earth would they want to join us Christians when we are seemingly more pathetic than they are?

I remember that a few years back, Fleur sent me a sermon message CD entitled "Living a Life of Excellence" or something to that effect. It was basically about how Christians should excel in whatever fields they are in  to bring glory to God. Among my circle of friends, I am synonymous with depression and emo-ness. I just got a random message from my friend Budi saying:

Wy. The song The Day You Went Away by M2M is sooooo you!

.....was my reply. That's really just sad. Therefore I have resolved to no longer shame the beautiful name of Jesus, I want to do all I can to bring Him glory. Praise and worship has always been my passion, so I thought it appropriate that I name my blog based on a song. At the moment I have been spamming the album This is Our God by Hillsong. One of the songs I really like is the opening song, Your Name High. I just can't sit still listening to that song, which is rather 'distracting' when I'm trying to study really.

Anyway, several people have come up and asked me: "Come lah I intro some girls to you. Whats type of girls you like?" Most of the time I'm too lazy to give a proper answer so I just shrug it off with some lame reply. Truth is ever since I was young, I already had an 'ideal girl' concept in my mind. It wasn't just some generic list with all the usual good stuff people want. It was in fact very detailed and specific, and I actually did find her. But what God has been revealing to me this past month is that basically there is no way that my tiny, puny brain could ever really figure out what kind of girl is ideal for me. Only He knows. Maybe the girl that I want, isn't the best one for me. Therefore I will choose to trust in Him in this. 


I fully agree with Mariel when she said, "Work on being the ideal guy first, instead of trying to find the ideal girl." At the moment, I wouldn't say yes to myself either. I am flawed in ways beyond description. I do like this quote from Max Lucado though: 

A woman's heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to seek Him just to find her.

Therefore I hope that as I turn my life's focus unto Jesus, he will eventually reveal to me the 'ideal girl' that was meant for me. On the other hand maybe......maybe I won't ever experience the true love of a woman, but I sincerely hope that I won't die before having made known that I have experienced the everlasting and unconditional love of my personal Lord and Saviour.

P/S: Happy Birthday to all my fellow Librans! And one more thing.....ROFL @ Yong!

*EMERGENCY*

We are interrupting our regular scheduled whining to bring you some devastating news. Our friend Zhou, or Don Zhou as he is more popularly known as recently, has gone missing. He has not logged into Facebook today. I repeat he has NOT LOGGED INTO FACEBOOK TODAY. His last Mafia Wars update post was at 9.49pm yesterday. Normal protocol dictates that we can only alert the authorities after 24 hours. As of time of writing, he has been missing approximately 16 hours, but all of us know that these are some extraordinary circumstances.

Possible explanations:

1. He's actually got a life.  Nah that's just preposterous! 
2. Kena kidnap. Scratch that! He is of no worth. 
3. He is still sleeping, which is possible. But still...16 hours meh.
4. The most probable explanation is, some classic Zhou "only-shit-happens-to-me" thing occurred. 

You know maybe his net is down, or his laptop motherboard fried, or earthquake swallowed his house etc.

He is so hopeless without us. Please help us find him!

Anyway, if you have any information concerning his whereabouts, please notify....erm....the Godfather?  =.=